Saturday, December 30, 2006


 

Sooner or later, everybody gets replaced

Something to think about ain't it? Like it or not, life's like that. Take a look at yours and you will understand what that statement means. Before i continue, i have a passage to share:

"I watched the proverbial sunrise coming up over the pacific and you might think i'm losing my mind. But i will shy away from the specifics, cause i don't want you to know where i am. Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been and this is no place to try to live my life.

Stop right there, that's exactly where i lost it. See that line? Well, i never should have crossed it. Stop right there! Well, i never should've said that. It's the very moment that i wish that i could take back.

I'm sorry for the person i became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to be sure i never become that way again. Cause who i am hates who i've been!

I talked to absolutely no one, couldn’t keep to myself enough. And the things bottled inside had finally begun to create so much pressure that i'd soon blow up! I heard the reverberating footsteps, syncing up to the beating of my heart and i was positive that unless i got myself together i would watch me fall apart.

Who i am will take the second chance you gave me. Who i am hates who i've been, cause who i've been, only ever made me!"


Kinda sums up everything. So don't have to ask about me anymore.

And so i finally got out off my iron gate this evening. It's the first time i stepped out after meeting up Sam few days back since last Friday. And before i know it, it's Saturday now. Is that how you label someone as hermit? You tell me.

So i'm out this evening to the hypermart, Fairprice Xtra, over at the Basement 2 of the AMK Complex. Huge is probably the only word i can think off. It's basically somewhat like Suntec's Carrefour, maybe abit smaller cause it's only one level. Anyway, i'm not auntie enough to linger long, what's more the crowds are forbidding me to explore much either.

The only constructive thing i have done for the whole of last week probably goes to helping my friend to get a blog done up, which is going to be a portal to sell some earrings, necklaces and such. Maybe you might see me doing some promotion for her in my blog, hopefully soon after she got her products all made, and i'm sure you know how girls can so 'efficient' when it comes to getting things done.

And after getting in touch with some stuff to do, i'm tempted to do some DIY bike models yet again. Haven't done one since February but it's partly due to the fact that there isn't any new models out in the stores. I was telling my friend about maybe i could collaborate with her and post some bike models to sell on the blog as well. My call was that some guys do like motorbikes and maybe ladies out there can get one for their boyfriends or male friends as birthday presents or something. Personalised it to something unique to the guy. Afterall the market for ladies is probably more dependable, since they spend like water running off the tap.

When i did my first bike model about 3 years ago, i had the idea of making 1 every time i get my payslip. But then my payslip since then wasn't that frequent and of cause it's not that cheap to do that all the time. Not to mention the time spend for each model can be up to 7 hours. So maybe when i do have more time and money all saved up, i could continue my idea again. I picture that as my retirement hobby, something to train and keep my eyesight perfect too.

University results are out, not sure if it's all universities across the island, but definitely NUS, and so far i heard about 4 friends' result, good news, all passed. Then again, all passed means happy? Or maybe they wanted more? I guess good is never good enough. Bet you yourself had the feeling after you received results from your previous exams or tests. Though of cause you do get relieved passing your most worried modules or sometimes bonusly delighted scoring distinction for modules you would be happy just to get an A.

So my friend was then telling me how he envied those female at his age, who has already graduated from universities and are into the working force. And this i can tell you, those who have been in army long enough would probably have the same thought of going back to school as soon as possible. Of cause, the grass is always greener over the fence, those ladies who are already in the working society, would probably look at us in green enjoying lives, getting overseas trainings, having long 18 days leave like me, blah blah blah, you fill in the blanks.

One last thought before i wrap up.

As i'm typing this post, i'm just thinking why do i want to have a blog. And apparently as i run through my head with my friends who have blogs, and the contents of their posts, somehow it's not difficult to notice that those who blog are having some unhappiness about their lives. Maybe not for some SPG, who i don't know writes for attention or simply get high with super high traffic and page views for their blogs.

But for my friends' blogs which i do take a look regularly, i realised they are not those who are happy with their lives. Well, you can be arguing with me that no one is always happy and such, but i'm sure those who blog understood me. I see my friends who doesn't blog, they seemed to be those who are really busy with their lives, probably enjoying and utilising every minute of it.

Anyway how often you see someone's blog with 10 out 10 posts all about how his/her fun or positive experiences? Ok, maybe perfect 10 is too much to call for, how about 7 out of 10? I would dare to say that most bloggers on average 7 of 10 posts are sad experiences instead. Maybe blog is a source to express one's sorrow? At least you don't get chilled back for what you are thinking are nonsensical or that you should get a life, move on, instead of whining. Apparently it's not hard to see that my blog has been and will always be the case.

To both who think blogging are waste of time, or those who blogs, refer to the title of this post again. Eventually it will be gone, so just do what you want, your way, your style. There's never a right or wrong. Till then.

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