10 Things I Don't Want to

I don't want to sleep early, for i know i would be wasting my life away when i wake up with time in hand, yet nothing in mind to do with.

I don't want to chat with you in msn, for i don't want to know when, where, what and who you were out with, for it's never going to be me.

I don't want to go out, for everywhere i go, i see couples except me.

I don't want to ask my friends out, for they never seem to be free, with 1001 excuses thrown at me.

I don't want to know what my friends are thinking, for they never fail to surprise me.

I don't want to reject help, for i hope to get one in time of need, but it was never meant to be.

I don't want to be a bastard, for it's destroying the lives of many, yet it is the way of life for many.

I don't want to be a pessimist, for it's self destruction, yet my life turns out to be what it is.

I don't want to ask for something, for it would be something someone who will fulfils it at all costs, without me appreciating it.

Lastly, i don't want to be nice, for everyone is trying to be, you just wonder who's faking Mr Nice-to-be and you never even realise who i am, for who i am hates who i used to be.