We spend our whole lives searching for all the things we think we won, when never really knowing what we have

Been really a long time since i last stayed up till so late. Stayed up waiting for a reply which didn't pleased me at all. I guessed i was too worried for nothing. But never mind, life's like that. Always getting the direct opposite when you're expecting something.

These few days have been rather crappy. My title speaks volume about what i have in mind. Career as pilot, a friend of mine, my bills, all these are seriously bothering me to the max. Even when i tried to talk to someone about it, all that most would suggest, was for myself to think about what i really want. Of course it's entirely my choice, i know that too. But i guess i just need someone, someone who is at least on my side, telling me that no matter what i chose, i'm always being supported.

Never mind, i never see that day will come any sooner too.

I don't think i'll want to type a long post at this hour, just here to post a short thought i had i mind. Something which i have been experiencing for quite some time. Close to 2 years i might say. And that's whenever i tried to get something, i'll end up having nothing. Blame it on bad timing, blame in on the fact that i'm not someone who does wonders, blame it on the people i met, blame it on everything, but no matter what, the more i search, the more i lose. I remembered telling my friend this; it seems like such fun, until you lose what you have won. Searching for things that are never realistic, and yet losing all that we have won in the process.

If I could have one wish tonight, I'd wish for the Garfield. The one that bites, hits and grumps.

Alright, not in the blogging mood. Till then.