I'm better off my own - 2

So, what should be in this post? The whole of last week was rather.. I should say ups and downs. Let's start with all the down parts.

First and foremost, i started the week with an ear infection on my right ear. Was having slight ache the week before, but i didn't really bother about it, as always. So, on the Tuesday morning, i woke up with one ear deaf. Shocked and scared was probably the easiest words i could think of now to describe my initial feeling.

Something that i could count myself lucky was that, i had my pilot medical review over at the Aeromedical Center to be done that morning, so i took the book out opportunity to consult doctor at the Tampines SingHealth.

Reason being that anyone guy out there who been through army, would definitely nod in silence, that visiting army Medical Center is simply waste of time, especially in Tekong. Cause you will be spending 2-3 hours waiting, less than 10 second of consultation by those impatient Medical Officers (i haven't been to the Medical Center before, but all those who did, can vouch that all the doctor say to you is simply: "Fever? Ok, go outside take your presciption." I doubt it's more than 10 seconds.) , and lastly medications which are nevertheless useless.

For the benefit of those who asked me about how's my pilot vocation going on, and those who had the misunderstanding that i'm already a pilot trainee, i shall do a quick update of my pilot vocation status.

As mentioned above, i was called for a review on my HB. HB is the abbreviation for Hemoglobin. Taken from dictionary: Hemoglobin - The red respiratory protein of red blood cells that transports oxygen as oxyhemoglobin from the lungs to the tissues, where the oxygen is readily released and the oxyhemoglobin becomes hemoglobin.

Don't worry, mine wasn't at the abnormal level, in fact i was told my HB is perfectly fine, but it's just that they have strict critera for pilots, and all that i know, i have to hit 13.5 for HB level. Thus the review was to have a full screen on my blood to find out if i do have any genetic blood disorder, and if necessary, i will have to take supplement to increase my HB level.

So, i'm basically still stuck at the last stage of confirmation, waiting for my medical clearance. Simply so near yet so far.

The most crappy incident happened on last Tuesday too. Another platoon mate and i booked out for our medical review and for convenience sake, we took the short route towards the jetty to be ferry back to mainland. On our way, we saw our SSM(School Sergeant Major) walking towards our direction. Human instinct to just shoo pass "danger", we tried to just looked down, acted as if we were looking at our appointment letters, trying to walked passed him as quickly as possible.

But there was no chance in hell, after just bypassing him, he called for us and reprimanded us for not greeting him. He "knocked" us down 10 push ups on the spot, and we were lashed out for not showing basic courtesy. But just when we thought that's all, after we got back to our company, we realised that he called and complained to our CSM(Company Sergeant Major), and that's when we realised how loser he was.

And for that, we two were given 1 extra duty to be done, and it's none other that a regimental guard duty on the 15th of Dec, whereby everyone will be having their block leave, yet we have to come back to Tekong again. And trust me, not that he's someone who deserves respect, for which we should greet him, he's someone who doesn't deserve any at all. His commands sound like crap and he's physically weak even though he has a big body build. Simply stupid to the core.

That's about all the downs for the week, now's the ups.

Last Monday, we had our Standard Obstacle Course(SOC) test, and i'm happy that i managed to clear all the 11 obstacles and did the 1.3km run at 10:31s. Wasn't an impressive timing, but i managed to get a "A" pass, by clearing all obstacles and do it under 11 minutes.

Lastly, before our book out yesterday, our Sir told us the top 3 ranking in our platoon of 48. 1st was none other that our Company Best PT (Best IPPT result) who is from my section, 2nd was a guy from another section in my platoon, 3rd was me. Prior to annoucing the platoon ranking result, one of my Section Commanders told me that i managed to score 87% for my SIT Test, and this probably placed me high up in the ranks. I only managed to secure a Silver for my IPPT, yet my platoon has 7 gold IPPT personnel, so i'm flattered and honoured to be among the top 3.

In 2 days time, it will be my Passing Out Parade(POP), which means i have completed my 13 weeks of training over at Tekong. Thinking back, it seems just like yesterday. Still remembering the day i got shaved 'botak', sleeping with 12 other guys in the same bunk, and now, we are passing out together, friendships and botherhood created.

I've learnt alot during this period of time. Wouldn't want to emo yet again, but i just want to thank all those who were there, good or bad. A big thank you to you.

This girl asked me, why do you want to always think so much, why do you always 'haiz' so much. Of cause, i'm not able to give any valid good reasons, all that i could say to you guys was, "If i'm someone who don't think anymore, don't haiz anymore, will you still believe i'm the one you're talking to?".

I still remembered i used to be quiet back in the school days. All that i did was to observe, listen and be by myself. If you will to ask me, that's probably the period of time i'm happy. But, how can one be happy by himself right? I have no idea too.

Perhaps i should be more self-centered, be more selfish, be less caring, and simply be less emo. Well, unless you're someone who knows me just today, you wouldn't believe i will do all that. Year 2006 is just around the corner, perhaps i should come out with some new year resolutions. Anyone with any good suggestions for me to change?

I'll be having slightly more than a week of rest following my POP on Tuesday, so i guess it's a good time to take a break and do something i like. Probably i'll extend my bike model collection by spending some time looking for a nice model and get it fixed, and it shall be the landmark to indicate the end of my BMT.

Might also call up friends for catch-up sessions, and that's provided they are willing to do so. Also try asking 'someone' out, which is impossible. Get myself a hard disk, download more movies to keep me occupy. If all else fails, gaming and sleep.

Last note, if i can't smile anymore, who will smile back. Simply no one.