Words can't say what love can do..

Been working and working for the past 1 month and so now. Everyday i'll either get up at 9am for my morning shift or 11am if i'm doing afternoon shift. On days when i blogged, it's probably like today whereby i'm on afternoon shift thus i try to make use of some of my time to post some thoughts. Work has taken most of my time and there are couple of things i'm missing out alot. And that's to play and to think.

Today is the 7th of August and it marks the last month of my time before i head in Tekong to serve the nation. I'll be continuing my job at Levi's till the end of August, spend some time with my family and hopefully some friends before the start of my monk days. Throughout this period of work at Levi's, i've learnt quite alot of stuff. May it be work related things or not, the explosure to more human interactions has definitely taught me alot.

I guess that's what all humans do in life. We learn to be a better man with the things we see but of cos, not all are like that. Some are leaders, some are followers, it's just a matter of which side you fall on.

For me, it's pretty simple. Just take my work as an example, whenever i face a nasty customer, chances is that i'll get irritated and i'll tend to show kinda bad attitude towards them, just like most of you guys reading. Not to say all salesperson are like me, cos i know some have real good patience. After the particular customer has left, that's when the learning part comes. Everytime i get nasty customers, at the end of the day, i'll ask myself, will i do what he/she did when i'm a customer myself?

If my answer is a, "probably i might just be like that", i think to be fair to him/her, i just have to accept it and then practise the more polite and considerate behaviour when i'm a customer myself next time. And of cos, i'll try to show more patience when i'm serving them. This is bits and pieces of what i've learnt during my work. To see, to hear, to interact, is to be better man.

Yesterday night i spend some time reminiscing back the years. 2 weeks back when i attended my graduation ceremony, i felt that my 3 years in NYP is a complete stranger to me. Part of the reason was that, there's really nothing in the campus that's worth having a second look at it. Of cos, i've contributing nothing back to the school as well, and probably that's why i felt zero cohesion to NYP.

Attending lectures and tutorials faithfully during my first 2 years, slacking off my time during my last year, doing projects and projects for 3 years, doing shitty compilations for all the projects, making friends and foes and at the end of the day, just to get a piece of paper.

No doubt i'm a merit holder, whereby some of my friends will look at me with eyes of envy, and of cos, it has help me to be able to get a place in NUS. But till now, i still believe what we been taught and learnt in school isn't 100% measured by grades. Just because Singapore is a practical society just like anywhere in this dog-eat-dog cruel world, whereby education level counts every bit, we just have to be competitive on our grades. Fighting till our last breath trying to get a place in University, hoping to be a degree holder, so as to at least be able to find a better job.

There's this saying; "Never judge a book by its cover". Ain't we judge by how colorful our certificates were? Of cos, those CCAs and testimonials during attachments to companies, play a part too, but it's not difficult to see, grades took 70-80% off the total percentage for which how good you are, whether you're up to a job or just a seat in University.

Morale of the story, life is so short yet we have to spend 20 years of life studying just to survive in this world.

Learning is not compulsory... neither is survival.
- W. Edwards Deming

I went through my emails, gunbounds pictures and some sites last night and i had a short smile at the end of it. Gunbound is another thing which has kept me occupied since the start of 2005. Make friends through guild, and had some outings as well. Funny as it sounds or seems to be, everyone started off as virtual friends and probably it's because of that, we are less skeptical towards each other? We will be nice to each and everyone, and at some point of time, i felt they are closer than my friends made in real life. But of cos, there's always a limit and difference between friends and friends made through net.

I've already left the guild for some reasons, but it's strictly personal reasons with no offence in mind. The days i had in Gunbound can never ever be exchanged for anything in this world. I may sound emotional or what, but just imagine online almost 10 hours per day just gaming with a friend day in day out, i believe it is more than just a habit.

Haven't been playing for weeks now, especially after the start of my work, and friends i used to play with till wee hours are also no longer active. Everyone has his/her own life, and it's only natural that everyone see things differently with different perspectives. Every banquet has its own ending. Time is the only deciding factor. Just want to say a big "Dank u" to the one who has been playing with me for the countless hours of fun. Things will never be the same again..

"Learn to forget the tough times, but never forget what it has taught you."

Gotta run for work now. Took me an hour just to type this post. Anyway, shall leave you guys with the song "I'll be there for you" by Bon Jovi.

I may not be the one you miss or love, but when there's no one out there, i'll be there for you.

Till then.


I'll Be There For You
Bon Jovi

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

[Solo]

And I wan't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for