Back to blogging

i realised the last post which i really wrote about some thoughts
was way back in 4th May. the rest are just some interesting reads
or some facts and quotes. so i reckon its time to do some updating
about myself and hopefully leave you guys with some food for
thoughts again.

seriously, i have lost much of my calendar sense. which means that
i'm living everyday like as if its a particular day. may it be
always sunday or everyday is public holiday to me. just like i only
realised today is public holiday. so, for the below comments, i'll
just write down what i had in mind. or what i had done for the past
2-3 weeks.

alright, for a start, everything still pretty much the same. sleep
later and later, as you guys can see, the time of this post. i bet
most of ya are already in lalaland. so i've been like playing gb
almost everyday. and i've got my wand rank. for the benefits of
those who don't know what i meant, i'll put it simple for you guys.
it simply means, i've have been playing games earning around 5-17
points per game, each game lasting from 1-15 mins and till date,
i've accumulated 32,500 points now. i reckon you guys should be
pretty ok with Maths, so i'll leave you guys to count the number
of games i have been in and the time spent.

and prior to the fact that i sleep late, i woke up late too. around
3-5pm for most days. i know, its very unhealthy, i'm wasting time
for the games, i'm missing half of the day.. but i think time for
me now is pretty sufficient. in fact too much to spare? yeah, will
be hunting for jobs soon. cos i've got like 3mths more to go before
my NS? anyway, i hope they will just ring me up within these few
days, and called me up for early enlistment. i know some of you
will be cursing at me for which you all wanted to have sept enlistment.
well, its just like that, i'm sure the long hailing of cabs when you
need it urgently and cabs stopping down for you when you aren't even
interested, sums up everything.

last thurs, i managed to catch Star Wars III with my friends. well,
i'm not really a Star Wars follower, but i was having neutral mind
about it, so i went for it as well. ok, for a start, the 1st thing
i wish to comment was that the vehicles flying in space is pretty..
fake? anyway, its just some stupid thoughts i had about it. nonetheless,
the movie was pretty intriguing, and i was spot on that the good guy,
was the bad guy master. (pardon me for not remembering names of them)
and i learnt that skywalker the famous name was, the Black XXX.
(sorry i don't how to spell it.) another thing which interest me was
the way Yoda phase his sentences. he will go something like.. "teach
you, i will." "leave, we shall." "hungry, i am.".. not sure if you guys
notice it, or i'm just a little bit making a mountain out of a mole.
and of cos, like what i said to my friend before the start of the show,
i was hoping to hear, "May the force be with you." and true enough,
skywalker and his master, 0-XXX said that to each other in a scene.
at the end of the show, i'm pretty much interested to get on hand the
Star Wars episode IV,V and VI. but i heard they are shown long time ago?
hope i do have a chance to watch them.

we had some chats as well on that day, and as usual, i'll be sharing
those facts i had in my brain, and of cos, some of the unpleasant past
i had. after the chats, i'm thinking about one particular thing. its
something about promise. i made promises in the past, and i
remembered most of them. i don't know if i'm a silly guy, a naive guy,
or what-so-ever but till now, i still kept the thinking that, whatever
i have promised to do for someone, i'll make sure i keep my words.

my friends were arguing with me that certain promises are meant to be
broken at some time or later. for the fact that, situations in the
future might not allow me to fulfill those promises. i might be
hurting someone else just to keep that so-called uncompleted promises.
and by then, for those people whom i've been keeping at the back of my
mind, might just have forgotten about the promises i made for them.

its a good point to note though. but at the current moment of time,
i'm still keeping those promises i made. at times, now and then, i may
have said certain things to you, which you might just be thinking that
i'm not serious about it, but if i do keep it as an uncompleted promises,
be sure that i'll get back to you once i've fulfill them for you.

it may sound just as silly and stupid as it is, but the simple reason
for me to do all these is that, i do hope that my friends around me are
sincere. even though you might be richer, more pleasant looking, more
smart, etc but i hope you guys are truthful to me and it doesn't mean
giving me the best of what you had, but just show me that i'm not just
a doormat to you.

as for what are just those promises i have made, they are pretty much
not easy to accomplish. of cos, money is the root of all evil. and its
the key for me to complete the promises. i won't be stating them here,
just a point to note, i hope i can complete them. if i don't, i'm sorry,
i hope i have tried my best, before i disappoint any of you.

another interesting topic we had for discussion was, why do 2 person
has to be in a love relationship in the 1st place? is the difference
between a couple and 2 opposite sex good friends merely the 3 things
(Kiss, hold, hug)? this quote was given to me last year by a gal. well,
i managed to defend the true meaning of couples with my own way of
interpretation, but nonetheless, i think its just that simple; love is
blind. there are no reasons and definitely not a single explanation to
it. nevertheless, its a food for thought though, cos my friends can't
really make their own arguments to it. hope you do have yours to argue
about.

for now, i can only remember the thurs outing i had. best day since my
long holidays, pretty enjoyed it. just hanging ard with no worries but
endless topics to chat about. hope there's more in the future.

another thing which i found out was that, there's no yamaha yzf R1 for
the 2005 series. the closest was the yamaha m1 2004. i'm refering to
the d.i.y. models of motonbikes just in case you guys aren't sure what
i'm talking about. but nonetheless, i was thinking of getting back the
same old r1 which i've got back then. its the old yzf r1. think its the
2001 series. ya, if you're observant enough, the korean clip on my blog
now, shows the model. take a closer look at the scene where the guy packs
his stuff before the operations. was thinking of getting it again to make
a nicer one. doing it jus plain white, with no paints to it. i'll see how
it goes.

i just saw a discussion show in the tv earlier, and they were discussing
about depression. i've got some symptons of what they had discussed.
but i'm glad to say that, i'm still in control of myself. haven't reach
that stage of complete out-of-control, whereby death is only thing i'm
seeking for.

alright, that's all i have now. i hope the next post will be a slightly
joyful one. perhaps something like i found my true love? yeah, keep
dreaming i suppose.

till then.