and so...

time flies once again. Been almost another month since my last post, and now its a period of study and mugging for exams. Actually not very applicable to my case, cause i can't really bother. Just do what i can from now till my papers.

The past 2-3 weeks was probably the toughest period for my 3 semesters in NUS. Barely catching enough sleep rushing 2 major projects and having tests and presentations along the way. Before i dwell further into school stuff, i'm just gonna update alittle about today. Call it ill-fate, or carelessness, i just think it sucks to be me.

The drama started this morning. As i stayed out the night, i made my way back home around 11am. It started with me having to do a run to catch the bus. And speaking of which, the short distance although didn't cause me to pant like a dog, but i can feel that my legs are not running as fast as my mind and body wished to. Time to seriously lose some weight and get back in shape.

Just as i thought my day started on a bad note, what lies ahead is just what i need to make my sentiments dead on.

So when i was about to reach my doorsteps, i realised i have forgotten to bring my keys out. And so i knocked on the door. After few knocks and to confirm what i fear most, the gate is knocked too. And... this only means my parents is out. Viola, there you go, my god-knows-how-many-times i'm stranded outside.

And so i went downstairs and sat near the playground looking at the familar kitchen windows and only myself to blame for forgetting my keys. Unsure how long my wait will be, i took a slow walk and got myself the papers and went back to the bench and start reading every single article that interests me.

At this point of time, if you guys are wondering why didn't i call my parents, just for the records, they don't carry mobile phones, in short, out and unreachable. My brother's probably working and so this sum up my alternatives to get the keys to my house.

After an hour or so, i know the wait is gonna be a long one, so i head to have my lunch alone. Seriously, to date, i don't recall me having meals alone outside that often. Kinda sucky to do that. Went to the prata house near my place and to make my day even more gloomy, my crave for mee goreng wasn't available until 3pm. So i settled for 3 plain pratas and i sure took my time and sat till 1 plus.

At times i felt like calling my friends out, few who actually stayed quite near me, the thought of doing so just flashed by and i just dropped idea without much hesitation. I guess i'm the kind who rather suffer being alone than to trouble others. Maybe it will make my situation even worse when i get rejections or shrugs for suggesting them to head out and accompany me for lunch, just because i'm locked out.

So i head back to the playground and sat for another half an hour, only to see my psp died on me. How nice. Real icing on the cake perhaps.

As i repeatedly attempt to call home, hoping for my parents to pick up if they're back and staring most of the time at the windows, i start recalling the last time i had the same situation. Guess that was probably many years back when i was in secondary days. I remembered i had few lock out in my primary days as well. And for the record, today wasn't the longest at 5hours+, i think i had a record still standing at 6hours plus. That was alot worse too, for that i didn't have the luxury of having my lunch and playing my portable console game.

Around 2pm, i made my way to amk centre. Decided to head where the crowd is and prevent myself from going senile with the wait. So i took the slow 15minutes walk and started window shopping at Hub's NTUC at my first stop. Surprisingly, i stayed there for almost an hour. And... NTUC is quite a good place to get most of the stuff you need at home. At least for AMK's one, i saw pretty much quite some items i would seriously consider having them for my house in the future. 

I was also picturing myself as an old uncle shopping with my wife for goceries and stuff. Can't blame me for having this thought, for every 10 steps i took, i'm bound to face 1 eldery couple. Guess it's a norm in supermarkets.

After the "window market", i walked around centre, and with no where else to head to, my last destination was the AMK National Library. Side-track a little, have you guys wonder why AMK's library is located at such a "wulu" place? I know it have been there since i was born, but seriously, it's super isolated. And despite this, it's still crowded. Singaporeans like to mug and read? Maybe... And, i just couldn't find a section where all the magazines are shelved.

Call me a library idiot, but seriously, i think the layout despite being more modern, it's quite hard to get what i want, and... i just don't understand why there's an Indian studying corner. Call me "R...ist", but i'm just wondering how and why is there a need for such segmentation.

As the thunder start roaring from the sky, i decided to make my way back before it start pouring and me getting stuck again. And with that, my call back home finally got answered and i officially reached home at 430pm.

Define ill fate and i will show you what it means.

Back to school stuff. Monday's my first paper, and i haven't got the thought of touching it yet. Maybe it's open book and it's business communication, so the preparation work isn't alot. But if you ask me, like i always say, examinations: A test of brain memory and if coupled with good command of English, you are able to crap your A out. 

What? Me being negative and labelling examinations as something not desirable? Yes. I am. I don't care how much you wanna argue with me that studying without tests and exams ain't gonna work, for you will never know how well one has managed to comprehend the ideas taught, or apply it in the correct perspective. 

My only statement for this is that, if you know all the exam questions, and you got them all correct, does it mean you're more knowledgeable? I can give you 2 cases of such scenarios. 

1 super mugger who can literally read and write every single word out from text and lecture notes and he has distinction for English. I'm sure you guys won't have discrepancies that he is bound to do well right?

2nd case, 1 super lucky guy who decides to take the shortcut and mug only selected chapters which happen to be the majority of questions tested. Lucky but manage to do reasonably well too.

So with the well-proclaimed bell curve system, these 2 categories of students got the As and Bs. And so now you asked, how about those who mug hard, didn't have good command of English to express their answers even when they already got what is supposedly the correct ideas to the question? Sucks to be them right? Cs and Ds became their friends.

Now you tell me, is education a medium whereby we start becoming 'racist' to individuals' intellectual growth or capabilities?

In this world of extremes, where there are categories/stereotypes of hell and heaven, kind and evil, ugly and pretty, police and thief, tall and short, fat and slim, rich and poor, famous and anonymous...

Tell me is it a choice for us to choose where we fall under? Along the way in life, yes, maybe we can choose to be ugly, choose to poor, fat... choose to be all the negative craps no one desires. But choosing to be rich, pretty, slim, famous... is it alot easier and attainable? You tell me.

Some might also be thinking, why make one's life so tiring with all these meaningless thoughts and negatively of life. Indeed, we don't have to go through all these, for we never get to achieve the ideal state of living no matter how we yearn it.

To end off, i urge you guys reading this, to think about what is it in life that makes you special from others. Maybe if you can come out with something, most likely you are now living in a better life as compared to others.

Till then.