Small Deeds Big Impact..

I cried for my brother 6 times I was born in a secluded village of a mountain.
Days by days my parents plowed the yellow dry soil with their backs facing the sky.
I have a younger brother, 3 years younger than me.
Once, to buy a handkerchief which all girls around me seemed to have,
I stole 50 cents from my father's drawer.
Father known about it right away.

He made my younger brother and me kneeled against the wall,
with a bamboo stick in his hand. "Who stole the money?" he asked.
I was stunned, too afraid to talk.
Father didn't hear any of us admit, so he said,
"Fine, if nobody wants to admit, you two should be beaten!"
He lifted up the bamboo stick.

Suddenly, my younger brother gripped father's hand and said," Dad, I was the one who did it!" The long stick smacked on my brother's back repeatedly.
Father was so angry that he kept on whipped my brother until he lost his breath.
After that, he sat down on our stone bed and scolded my brother,
"You have learnt to steal from your own house now, what other embarrassing things you will do in the future??
You should be beaten to death! You shameless thief!"

That night, mother and I hugged my brother.
His body full of injuries, but he didn't shed a single tear.
In the middle of the night, all of sudden I cried out loudly.
My brother covered my mouth with his little hand and said, " Sis, now don't cry anymore. Everything has happened."

I still hate myself for didn't have enough courage to admit what I had done.
Years gone by, but the incident still looked like it just happened yesterday.
I will never forget my brother's expression when he protected me.

That year, my brother was 8 years old; I was 11 years old.
When my brother was in his last year of his lower secondary school,
he was accepted in an upper secondary school in the central.

At the same time, I was accepted into a province's university.
That night, father squatted in the yard, smoking, packet by packet.
I could hear him said, "Both our children have good results? very good results?"
Mother wiped off her tears and sighed,
" What is the use? How can we possibly finance both of them?"

At that time, my brother walked out, he stood in front of father and said,
"Dad, I don't want to continue my study anymore, I have read enough books."
Father swung his hand and slapped brother on his face.

"Why do you have a spirit so damn weak?
Even if it means I have to beg for money on the streets,
I will send you two to school until you both finish your study!"

And then, he started to knock on every house in the village to borrow money.
I stuck out my hand as soft as I can to my brother's swollen face, and said,
"A boy has to continue his study; If not, he will not be able to leave this depths of poverty."

Me, on the other hand, had decided not to further my study to university.
Who knows on the next day, before dawn,
my brother left the house with a few pieces of worn-out clothes and a few dry beans.
He sneaked to the side of my bed and left a note on my pillow;
"Sis, get into an university is not easy. I will go find a job and send money to you."
I held the note while sitting on my bed, and cried until I lost my voice.

That year, my brother was 17 years old; I was 20 years old.
With the money father borrowed from the whole village,
and money my brother earned from carrying cement on his back at construction site,
finally, I managed to get to the third year of my study in the university.

One day, I was studying in my room, when my roommate came in and told me,
"There's a villager wait for you outside!"

Why is there a villager looking for me?
I walked out, and saw my brother from afar, His whole body is dirty, covered by dust, cement and sands.

I asked him, "Why don't you tell my roommate that you are my brother?"
He replied with a smile,
" Look at my appearance.
What will they think if they know that I am your brother? Don't they laugh at you?"

I felt so touched, and tears filled my eyes.

I swept away dusts from my brother's body.
And said with a lump in my throat, " I don't care of what people say!
You are my brother no matter what your appearance is?"

From his pocket, he took out a butterfly hair clip.
He wore it on me, and said, "I saw all the girls in town are wearing it.
So, I think you should also have one." I could not hold back myself anymore.
I pulled my brother into my arms and cried and cried.

That year, my brother was 20 years old; I was 23 years old.
The first time I brought my boyfriend home, the broken window had been repaired.
And it looked so clean inside the house.
After, my boyfriend went home, I danced like a small girl in front of my mother,
"Mom, you don't have to spend so many time cleaning the house!"

But she said with a smile," It was your brother who went home early to clean the house. Didn't you see the wound on his hand? He was injured while replacing the window."

I went into my brother's small bedroom.
Looking at his thin face, I felt like there are hundreds of needle pricked in my heart.
I put some ointment on his wound and bandaged it, "Does it hurt? " I asked him.
"No, it doesn't hurt. You know, when I was working in the construction site,
stones falling on my feet all the time. Even that could not stop me from working and?"

In the middle of the sentence, he stopped. I turned my back on him and tears rolling down my face.

That year, my brother was 23 years old; I was 26 years old.
After I got married, I lived in the city.
Lots of time my husband invited my parents to come and live with us, but they didn't want. They said, once they left the village,they didn't know what to do.
My brother also didn't agree, he said, "Sis, you just taking care of your parents-in-law.
I will take care of mom and dad here."

My husband became the director of his factory.
We wanted my brother to get the job as the manager in the department of maintenance.
But, my brother rejected the offer.
He insisted on starting to work as a reparation worker.
One day, my brother was on the top of a ladder repairing a cable,
when he got electrocuted, and was sent to the hospital.
My husband and I visited him.

Looked at the white gypsum on his leg, I grumbled, "Why did you reject to be a manager? Manager will not do something dangerous like this.
Look at you now, such a serious injury. Why you didn't want to listen to us?"

With a serious expression on his face, he defended on his decision,
"Think of brother-in-law?he just became the director, and I almost uneducated.
If I became the manager, what kind of rumors will fly around?"

My husband's eyes filled up with tears, and then I said,
"But you lack in education also because of me!" "Why talking about the past?"
My brother held my hand.

That year, he was 26 years old and I was 29 years old.
My brother was 30 years old when he married a farmer girl from the village.
In his wedding reception, the master of ceremonies asked him,
"Who is the one you respect and love the most?"
Without thinking, he answered," My sister."

He continued by telling a story I could not even remember.
"When I was in primary school, the school was in different village.
Everyday, my sister and I walked for 2 hours to go school and go home.
One day, I lost one of my pair of gloves.
My sister gave me one of hers.
She only wore one glove and walked for so far.
When we got home, her hand was so trembled because of the weather that was so cold that she could not even hold her chopsticks.
From that day on, I swore that as long as I live, I would take care of my sister and be good to her."

Applause filled up the room.

All guests turned their attentions to me.
Words were so hard to come out from my mouth,
"In my whole life, the one I would like to thank the most is my brother,"
And in this happy occasion, in front of the crowd, tears rolling down my face again. Love and care for the one you love every single days of your life.

You may think what you did is just a small deed, but to that someone, it may mean a lot. Have a nice day everyone! May this story inspire you in any way!

Jet - Look What You've Done

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Hey Guys..

long time din blog le.. well.. let mi do some updating abt mi..
tis wk is the end of wk 11 for my FYPJ.. left 1 more wk..
it will end at 14th of Aug.. yeah?? no chance...
i'll starting my IPP on the 16th of Aug.. haven noe where i'll be posted..

juz hope the pay is gd?? juz gimme $1000.. (in my dreamz)
anyway.. tis 11 wks of prison job in sch to do my FYP... was living hell..
basically i'll say most of the time.. i'm doing nthing.. doing proj??

nah.. i tink i'm more familiar wit others pple proj den mine.. y??
cos i've been spending time helping pple.. i'm not complaining..
juz stating facts.. haha... those who did appoarched mi.. time to feel guilty.. isnt it??

other den proj.. basically nthing much happened.. been drifting in life..
counting my days each day as they passed..

those who real hardcore visitors of my blog.. thanx.. and continue ur support..
and btw.. comments on my blogs.. u can post ur tinkings oso.. if not it's gettting dull..

For those out dere.. All the best in life.. dun be like mi.. ;)

A love story....
 
Message: Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.
 
Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.
 
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh n silence for a while)
 
Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game
 
Peter: Eh? What game?
 
Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?
 
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.
 
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?
 
Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.
 
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)
 
Day 2: Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.
 
Day 3: They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.
 
Day 7: Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.
 
Day 25: Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together for a while.
 
Day 67: They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.
 
Day 84: Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.
 
Day 99: They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.
 
1:23 pm Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
 
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?
 
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.
 
1:43 pm Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her.
 
Stranger: Is your name Tina? Tina: Yes, and may I help you?
 
Stranger: Justnow down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.
 
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands.
 
The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.
 
11:51 pm Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon.
 
We found this letter inside his pocket. The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful.
 
Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.
 
"Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you."
 
11:58 Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU. As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days.
 
NOTE* Tell the guy or girl that you love them before its too late. You never know whats going to happen tomorrow. You never know who will be leaving you and never return
 

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. I

n the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.

"Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.

No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.

We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know,
but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special - Don't EVER forget it."

If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring.

Count your blessings, not your problems.

And remember:
Amateurs built the ark ... professionals built the Titanic.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

Time for Jokes.

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Girl : Do you love me ?
Boy : Yes Dear
Girl : Would you die for me ?
Boy : No, mine is undying love

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1st thief : Oh ! The police is here. Quick! Jump out of the window
2nd thief : But this is the 13th floor.
1st thief : Hurry! this is no time for superstitions.

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Man : How old is your father ?
Boy : As old as me
Man : How can that be ?
Boy : He became a father only when I was born

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Waiter : I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.
Customer : Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.

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Teacher: Desmond, your composition on "My Dog"
is exactly the same as your brother's.
Did u copy his?
Desmond: No, teacher, it's the same dog!

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Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you
anything!
Son : That's why I say she's no good!

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Manager : Sorry, but I can't give u a job. I
don't need much help.
Job Applicant: That's all right. In fact, I'm
just the right person in this case.
You see, I won't be of much help anyway!

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Dad : "Son, how can you call your aunt stupid?
Go and say sorry to her."
Son :(goes over to the aunt) "Aunt, I am sorry
you are stupid.

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Teacher: "How do u think Shakespeare wrote
such masterpieces?"
College student: "With a pencil, maam, either
a 2B or not 2B."
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"Mum, teacher was asking me today if I have
any brothers or sisters who will be coming to
school."
"That's nice of her to take such an interest, dear.
What did she say when u told her u are the
only child?"
"She just said, 'Thank goodness!'"

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Teacher: "Where were u born?"
Student: "Singapore, Sir."
Teacher: "Which part?"
Student: "All of me, Sir."

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Teacher: "Chong, u missed school last Friday."
Chong : "You're wrong, Sir."
Teacher: "Wrong, how is that?"
Chong : "I was absent, yes but I certainly
didn't miss it!"

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A teacher was asking her class: "What is the
difference between 'unlawful' and 'illegal'?"
Only one hand shot up. "Ok, answer, Joan,"
said the teacher. "
'unlawful' is when u do something the law
doesn't allow and 'illegal' is a sick eagle."

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Patient : How much to have this tooth pulled?
Dentist : $90.00.
Patient : $90.00 for just a few minutes
work???
Dentist : I can extract it very slowly if you
like.

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Teacher : "How come you do not comb your hair?"
Ah Kow : "No comb, Sir."
Teacher : "Use your dad's then."
Ah Kow : "No hair, Sir."

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A boy came home from school with his exam results.
"What did u get?" asked his father.
"My marks are under water," said the boy.
"What do u mean 'under water'?"
"They are all below 'C' level"

everything's moving too fast..

haven blog for quite some time..
its been few months ald..
since den i had started to noe tt the world is not tt simple as it seems..
pple.. life.. everything.. perspectives..
many things have change..
well at least i dun tink i'll feel the same to things i used to tink naively..

since den..
many things has been moving fast.. too fast in fact..
i'm currently in my 6th wk of my FYP.. i'm left wit 6wks more to go..
aft tt its gonna to be IPP.. time is really moving too fast..
pple come and go..
time went and nv came back..

i dunno if u guys reading tis hav any emotions attached when u all are reading tis..
but there's 1 thing sure aft u read it..
it's abt time to sit down and tink abt wad
u are gg to plan for ur coming semester..
wad's is gg to lies ahead of u?

time waits for no1.. and no1 can stop it..
juz hope u guys will find some time to reflect the past few months..
the things tt happened.. the pple u met.. the lifestyle u went thru..
cherish them... its not easy to hav the same moments u had again..

and lastly hope every1 stays happy.. till then........

A small little survey for you guys..

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Describe me in one word.

7. What was your first impression?

8. Do you still think that way about me now?

9. What reminds you of me?

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?

11. How well do you know me?

12. When's the last time you saw me?

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

14. Are you going to put this on your live journal and see what I say about you?

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Ah Beng's FutureCard ( Likely Scenerio )

Operator: "Thank you for calling Pizza Hut Geylang. May I have your..."

Ah Beng: "Haloo, arh...can I orler huh..."

Operator: "Can I have your Future Card number first, Sir?"

Ah Beng: "It's arh..., hold on prease, arh..... S6102-0499-54610FC"

Operator: "OK... you're... Tan Ah Beng alias 'Or Kwee Tao' and you're calling from 17-D Lorong 14, Geylang. Your home number is 6782 8828, your office 6782 8838 and your mobile is 96828848. Which number are you calling from now Sir?

Ah Beng: "Home lah! Wah Lan...How you get all my phone lumbers, arh?"

Operator: "We are connected to the 'FutureCard' system Sir"

Ah Beng: "OK lah, okay lah...Can I orler your Seafood Pisar..."

Operator : "That's not a good idea Sir"

Ah Beng: "Why....Cannot arh?"

Operator: "According to your latest medical records, you have high blood pressure and even higher cholesterol level Sir"

Ah Beng: "What?...Wah Lan!....medical lecords also hab... you lecommend lah?"

Operator: "Try our Low Fat Hokkien Mee Pizza. You'll like it"

Ah Beng: "Wah...How you know I like Hokkien mee, arh?"

Operator: "You borrowed a book entitled "Popular Hokkien Dishes" from the National Library last week Sir"

Ah Beng: "OK...OK...Buay Ta Han... I give up... Gif me three family sized ones then, how much arh?

Operator: "That should be enough for your family of 10, Sir. The total is $45..."

Ah Beng: "I pay by FutureCard...Can or Not ?"

Operator: "I'm afraid you have to pay us cash, Sir. Your credit card is over the limit and you're owing your bank $6720.55- since October last year"

Ah Beng: "Ka Nee Nah!... Everything also know...chiat lat!"

Operator: "That's not including the late payment charges on yourhousing loan Sir.

Ah Beng: "Okay lah...I run to ATM and withdraw some cash before you come my house lor"

Operator : "You can't Sir. Based on the records, you've reached your daily limit on machine withdrawal today....with the latest withdrawal of $250 for 4D and TOTO at 2.46pm"

Ah Beng: "Never mind just send the pizzas, I borrow money from my Ah Mah. How long arh?"

Operator: "About 45 minutes Sir, but if you can't wait you can always come and collect it on your motorcycle...it'll be ready in 15 mins and you are only 5 mins away"

Ah Beng: "Where got transport?"

Operator: "According to the details in your FutureCard", you own a Honda Scooter, ...registration number FE 3288..."

Ah Beng: "Ka Nee Nah!"

Operator : "Better watch your language Sir. Remember on 15th July 1987 you were convicted of using abusive language on a policeman... ?"

Ah Beng: [Speechless and calms down after being reminded of the brush with the law]

Operator: "Is there anything else Sir?"

Ah Beng: "Nothing... by the way... still got stock of that 3 free bottles of cola as advertised or not?"

Operator: "We normally would Sir, but based on your records you're also diabetic....... "

Ah Beng: [Heard cursing away as he slams down the phone and telling his family he is going to the Hawker Centre to 'Tar Pow']

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