15 days
Big countdown to the day i'll be tossing my peak cap at the SAFTI parade square. Been a week over here in OCS,(Yup, i'm blogging using the newly installed DELL computers in the bunks.), and the most tiring part for the whole of the week has to be the long travellings, around Singapore to various camps for visits.
Had some interesting workshops on topics about Officership, morals, values, and also roles of becoming Defending or Investigating Officer next time after we are commissioned. Overall it wasn't a bad week, cause as the days go, it meant the nearer to the big day.
I've got quiet many thoughts in mind, but again i'm always lost for words when i start blogging. I just hope i get to do what i want for now and people around me are happier. As i'm typing all these out, i can't help thinking that when i look back someday, i'll regret for all the choices i made. As for why, i guess i'll jot them down again.
Good luck to those having exams, and for those who had finished their semester, enjoy and knock yourself out. Rope me in for some fun if you guys fancy. Weekends are going to be very precious to me again. Have to utilise them fully. That's all i have.
May the force be with you.
Friday, November 24, 2006
Sunday, November 12, 2006
The Black Parade
It's been real long since my last post. I wanted to leave some of my thoughts down here last week, but apparently there's some problem with Blogger. Making use of the waiting-to-go-back-to-camp time, i'm here to leave some craps.
It's nearing my commissioning parade. The big day for me. 4 more weeks to go and it shall concludes the 38 weeks of cadet life. Just as i'm about to leave my professional term and head back OCS for the last 3 weeks of Joint term, we had a session with the SI commander last Thursday morning. Personally i find it something quite interesting.
He answered some of our course questions they wrote down in their journals, which is being read by the instructors every week. He spoke to us about leadership, life and responsibilities of a commander, in our case as an officer of the armed forces. An example which he mentioned to us was that knowing his men were on duty during Chinese New Year, he went back camp, bought some food and had a short reunion dinner with them. Though it's just a short while, it meant a lot for his men.
I'm not sure how many after reading about this, would feel anything towards it. But for my case i certainly respect him for doing that. And touching on the issue of respect, he shared with us another value for us to ponder and exercise it. The 3 Rs.
Respect, Reciprocate and Reflect.
Simple as the words spelt out, they literally meant to respect others, reciprocate kindness and reflect on our actions.
More than often in life, everyone likes to receive more than to give. I'm sure i don't have to elaborate more on this, everyone knows how good i am at doing the opposite. So much so, as i'm starting to have more slack time recently, all the thoughts just kept filling up my mind. I had a supper session with a poly friend just days back, and inevitably we touched on this not-so-fantastic issue again.
I was sorta whining to him about how when things you did for someone never get appreciated, not even to mention reciprocate. And more than often, some simple gestures done for him/her which may appeared a small deed, may just not be the case. Yet you just wonder if they ever think about the effort behind all the pretty surfaces.
Despite this these what-if, do-they, it all just summarized to nothing is right or wrong. What matters most is to do what you think is right, like it or not, you don't always get what you wanted, not to mention what you hoped for.
When i got questioned about what in life do i hope to achieve, and what's my plan after NS, all that i could come out with was just a "I don't know". But of cause, it's just so-not-me right? I should be someone who has like tonnes of thoughts, big ideas and all the life philosophies.
But you know, i've been going into all the i-don't-wanna-think-too-much lately. After i looked back at all the things i have done in the past 4 years, i just want give myself a pat and say, "Time to be yourself."
And the big question of who or what is "myself", is enough to give one endless thoughts. Neither do i have the ideal solution or the so-called Ten-Year-Series model answer to it. All that i offer to my 1 cent worth of advice, is to forget about all the big sayings of what's right, what's wrong, what's good, what's worthwhile, what's you, what's me, what's what.
Just think outside the box and stay outside of it. Just 1 simple question, are you G-O-D? No one is, thus no one can pin-point you and say you're wrong, you're evil, so on and so for.
I may seems to be muttering all these with no real direction or purpose, but i guess it speaks for itself. If you do get what i'm trying to say, that's good. Else, thank you for reading all these. 'Cause at the end of day, how much you take away from my blog is never a good justification of who you perecive i am, nor do it means how sensible or thoughtful i am.
With that, i shall end this off by wishing all those having exams round the corner, all the best for the papers. And for those who still haven't got a clue what they want in life, time is always on our side. Just how you use it is the only difference.
Till then.
It's been real long since my last post. I wanted to leave some of my thoughts down here last week, but apparently there's some problem with Blogger. Making use of the waiting-to-go-back-to-camp time, i'm here to leave some craps.
It's nearing my commissioning parade. The big day for me. 4 more weeks to go and it shall concludes the 38 weeks of cadet life. Just as i'm about to leave my professional term and head back OCS for the last 3 weeks of Joint term, we had a session with the SI commander last Thursday morning. Personally i find it something quite interesting.
He answered some of our course questions they wrote down in their journals, which is being read by the instructors every week. He spoke to us about leadership, life and responsibilities of a commander, in our case as an officer of the armed forces. An example which he mentioned to us was that knowing his men were on duty during Chinese New Year, he went back camp, bought some food and had a short reunion dinner with them. Though it's just a short while, it meant a lot for his men.
I'm not sure how many after reading about this, would feel anything towards it. But for my case i certainly respect him for doing that. And touching on the issue of respect, he shared with us another value for us to ponder and exercise it. The 3 Rs.
Respect, Reciprocate and Reflect.
Simple as the words spelt out, they literally meant to respect others, reciprocate kindness and reflect on our actions.
More than often in life, everyone likes to receive more than to give. I'm sure i don't have to elaborate more on this, everyone knows how good i am at doing the opposite. So much so, as i'm starting to have more slack time recently, all the thoughts just kept filling up my mind. I had a supper session with a poly friend just days back, and inevitably we touched on this not-so-fantastic issue again.
I was sorta whining to him about how when things you did for someone never get appreciated, not even to mention reciprocate. And more than often, some simple gestures done for him/her which may appeared a small deed, may just not be the case. Yet you just wonder if they ever think about the effort behind all the pretty surfaces.
Despite this these what-if, do-they, it all just summarized to nothing is right or wrong. What matters most is to do what you think is right, like it or not, you don't always get what you wanted, not to mention what you hoped for.
When i got questioned about what in life do i hope to achieve, and what's my plan after NS, all that i could come out with was just a "I don't know". But of cause, it's just so-not-me right? I should be someone who has like tonnes of thoughts, big ideas and all the life philosophies.
But you know, i've been going into all the i-don't-wanna-think-too-much lately. After i looked back at all the things i have done in the past 4 years, i just want give myself a pat and say, "Time to be yourself."
And the big question of who or what is "myself", is enough to give one endless thoughts. Neither do i have the ideal solution or the so-called Ten-Year-Series model answer to it. All that i offer to my 1 cent worth of advice, is to forget about all the big sayings of what's right, what's wrong, what's good, what's worthwhile, what's you, what's me, what's what.
Just think outside the box and stay outside of it. Just 1 simple question, are you G-O-D? No one is, thus no one can pin-point you and say you're wrong, you're evil, so on and so for.
I may seems to be muttering all these with no real direction or purpose, but i guess it speaks for itself. If you do get what i'm trying to say, that's good. Else, thank you for reading all these. 'Cause at the end of day, how much you take away from my blog is never a good justification of who you perecive i am, nor do it means how sensible or thoughtful i am.
With that, i shall end this off by wishing all those having exams round the corner, all the best for the papers. And for those who still haven't got a clue what they want in life, time is always on our side. Just how you use it is the only difference.
Till then.
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